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I did this survey over 3 years ago,...funny thing is I was again waiting for my laundry...I am here until my laundry is done...so thought I would fill it in...

CURRENTLY
how old are you: 23
wearing: pajamas
listening to: Chris Rice
chewing: nothing
feeling: nostalgic
reading: Blue Like Jazz/Eat, Pray, Love
located: computer room
chatting: no one
watching: nothing
should really be: sleeping

HAVE YOU EVER
peed your pants: Im sure at some point when I was little
cheated on someone: no.
fallen off of the bed: yes more times then I care to say
fallen for a relative: ewww....nooo.
had plastic surgery: eck no.
failed a grade: nope.
had your heart broken: umm kind of.
had a dream come true: yes.
done something you regret: just a few...nothing I can't live with though. I was young and stupid.
cheated on a test: ummm yes...at some point...yes
been raped: no
Been Drunk: yes.
Had sex: nope.
Been proposed to: nope.
Gotten married: nope
Told a lie: uhh yeah
Cried: umm yes.
broken a body part: Yes. A finger, a toe, each wrist, my collar bone...

DO YOU
brush your teeth: all the time.
like anybody: yes.
have any piercing: nope
Any Tattoos: nope
drive: Yes...I miss my car...she has no a/c :(
believe in Santa Claus: it's a nice thing when you are young...sometimes I wish I still had that innocence.
ever get off the computer: yes

FRIENDS
who is your best girl friends: Jess, Kendall, Kaila-la
who is the loudest: Erika
who is the shyest: Jenny
who is the hottest: I have a lot of hot friends
who is the cutest: haha...what?
who laughs the most: my sister
who have you known the longest: Kendall & Kaila
who have you known the shortest: hrrmmmm
Who is your best guy friend/s: Andrew, Adam, Sam
Who do you talk to the most: Adam
do you hang out with a certain type: ummm...
do you hang out with the opposite sex: yes. I'm not 5!
do you trust your friends: yes
are you a good friend: I think so...I hope so!
can you keep a secret: yes.

THE LAST PERSON YOU
hugged: My grandma
kissed: oh dear god....I don't even remember
had sex with: negative
IMed: Adam...?
talked to on the phone: Kaila-la!
yelled at: errr...I haven't yelled in awhile
fell in love with:...
tripped: ??myself??

PERSONAL

what do you want to be: happy
what was the worst day of your life: umm there have certainly been a few of those
what is your most embarrassing story: I have a lot.
when has been the best day of my life: there's a lot. Disneyland Trip with my Siblings was pretty incredible.
what comes first in your life: God and my family.
do you have a boyfriend: nope
if you had an extra set of eyes where would you put them: umm thats wierd
what do you usually think about before you go to bed: everything...my mind goes crazy.

FAVORITE
movie: Any old classics, musicals, and good dramas oh and romantic comedies
song of the moment: What a Heart is BEating for
group of the moment: The BEatles!
store: Target.
sport: BASEBALL
vacation spot: Germany!
ice cream flavor: peanut butter and chocolate
fruit: Peaches or Strawberries...or Watermelon...hmmm so many!!
candy: anything CHOCOLATE!
holiday: Christmas.
day of the week: Sunday
Color: Purple or Blue
magazine: hrmmm...
name of a girl: Riley
name of a boy: Tristan, Joseph, and Elijah
relatives: my sister and my brother
like to give hugs: yeS! they are the best!
Like to dance: yes.
like to walk in the rain: YES!! Love it!!
sleep with or without clothes on: on..please!
Sleep with an animal: not anymore.
prefer black or blue pens: black
dress up on Halloween: not usually
have a job: part time at a PT office and the church
like to travel: yes
like someone: ohh yes
sleep on your side, tummy, or back: my side.
want to marry: someday.
have a goldfish: no
ever have the fallen dream: yeah
have stuffed animals: yes.
go on vacation: yes

THIS OR THAT
single or taken: single
simple or complicated: simple is good...but I make things complicated because I am an insecure perfectionist
law or anarchy: law
mtv or bet: mtv
sugar or salt: sugar
silver or gold: well most of my jewelry is silver
color or black and white photos: ohhh BLACK AND WHITE!! I love them!
sunrise or sunset: Arizona Sunsets and Spain Sunrises :)
rap or rock: rock
stay up late or sleep in: stay up late..hello...do I ever sleep :)
TV or radio: Radio
hot or cold: warm/hot
sun or moon: moon
left or right: right
10 acquaintances or one best friend: best friend.
cat or dog: dogs!
half empty or half full: half full
mustard or ketchup: ewww...gross...no me gusta
newspaper or magazine: newspaper
spring or fall: spring and Fall!
give or receive: give
rain or snow: rain
happy or sad: happy
wonder or amazement: amazement
McDonalds or burger king: bleh
Mexican or Italian food: Mexican!!
lights on or off: off
duct tape or scotch tape: duct tape
candy or soda: Candy...well okay Diet Coke :)
a house in the woods or city: a pretty house out in the woods...but they have to be not Scary creepy woods...pretty woods :)
something cool about yourself: something cool? umm I have the best family!
who was the freek that sent this to you?? haha...I don't remember

Wohooo...I think my laundry is done...YAY CLEAN CLOTHES & SHEETS!!

OH SO TIRED>>
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I'm falling in love with this world again, this strange quaint little world, that I never thought I could. There was so much damage, and I finally feel like it's starting to heal, or that maybe enough time has passed that the sand is starting to cover the hurt, and soften the pain. I've spent an entire week in my house by myself, and it feels perfect, there is no sadness, just knowing that the future is bright. I want rain, and warmth, and smiles, and hugs, and laughter, and cool splashes of water, and love, and uncertainty, and it will come, it is. and this hurt is fading. and it feels good. These patterns are still vibrant, but not violent. Not hateful or spiteful, just challenging.

When did i become unloveable. school is on the brain. need to tell my grandmothers story. still not over grandpa. or ready for that adult idea. standards are too high. dissapointed. not going to lie. seriosly...dissapointed. and need to sleep.